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To Alain:

Dear Alain, this is dedicated to you, and as a reply to an offer you mademe to explain where I was at, but I could not reply anymore since  somehow I had been disconnected from the site , now I am back on line...

This is a posting I made to another group, but I will explain what else, I feel like now!

Here goes the post:

Carmen speaks her truth!

As far as who I am, or appear to be, since we are all nothing but part of the Light, part of the One and I have played many roles in many incarnations, which I have re-lived, not just remembered, and which have given me the knowledge of why I am still here, I came this time around, as most of us have, to help bring in this New World that we are creating  every day of our lives!

We are nothing but Creators God or better said, that part of the Creation that is active and creates through us!

I was not very satisfied, as a child , about the role I was playing and wanted out,

but was not allowed, by any stretch of the imagination to check out, so I lived, and continue to live, because I have a lot of work to do here!

And I have done a lot, but there is more...

I was born in Cuba and married a Cuban who had joined the Army of the USA and brought me here. The marriage did not work and I returned to Cuba to get a divorce an to live there, but the circumstances in Cuba were becoming intolerable, so I returned and lived alone, for many years, waiting for my parents to arrive...which they eventually did, they were quite aged, since they had given birth to me at an advanced age, but they lived wonderful lives after they came here and I took  good care of them. My father lived to be 105!

I married again, an American, and that married lasted  six years, and I divorced, again, but we became friends, again, after the divorce

and have remained friends for life, and when he had several strokes and heart attack and so many other things, I have taken care of him....

I never abandon a friend! I am an Aquarian and that is the sign of Friendships....

That is the external life in a nutshell, however, I have performed many jobs in my life, I began as a school teacher in Cuba, I became a Certified Public Accountant in the USA and have made a very good livelihood with it, and that helped me to support my parents and myself and everyone else that I have cared for...

But I am also an Astrologer and do it professionally and also for fun!

I once belonged to a group that dealt with the Harmonious Development of Man and founded a Center in Mexico City, I became an Avatar Master and did Deliveries, then became A Wizard, and ended up having a Holistic Center in North Carolina, I have lived in many cities in the USA and abroad, and visited a lot of the World, and even became a Travel Agent and worked in my own Travel Agency for the fun of it! I also  became an Interior Design and did some work on the field with another lady and we had a lot of fun doing it!

But my inner work has been the love of my life.

I was a painter, even as a child and a poetess, and at nine years old I had prepared my own manuscript, a book of poetry with my own illustrations!

In school I wrote  plays and acted on them, as well, and I used to recite every Friday whatever the teacher would give me in the morning, at noon, since I could remember every word of the poetry that she wanted me to recite, I had a photographic memory at the time, which I must report that is not as intact now, as it was then! (to say the least..., which means, that I do forget now, a lot!, sometimes even on purpose)

My father was a theosophist and I have read his books since I learned how to read, by myself, also at a very early age, and I have read parts of the Hindu Vedas, specially the Mahabharata and the Baghavad Gita,  which impressed me for life!, before I had ever read the Bible.

However, I am now a student of Kabbalah and I have studied the Bible like  very few people have, because I  know it is a book written in code, and we decode it, with certain tools given by Kabbalah.

But it was at age 22 when I first had an experience of Union with everything that is, and since then, the thirst for a repeated performance was my driving force and I entered a search that has never ended yet!

I had studied not only Education but also Philosophy and Letters, which would allow me to write professionally, but I fell in love with the Philosophy part of it, where I had to study all the great philosophers of the World, specially the Greek philosophers, and all the Classic Literature, and learn Latin and Greek!

That  was one of the greatest treats that I gave to myself!

Well, I have been  into all religions, into everything that would give me clues and pieces of the puzzle of the Game of Life, and I must tell you all that nothing is as complete as the Kabbalah studies that I am undertaking now...

But in the meantime I had many repeated performances of that first Union with all that is, like the experience that I had at such an early age.

I have also, been visited by many Angels and Ascended Masters and guided in the inner World and given lessons there.

I have communicated with those on the other side of the veil, that needed to use me as a communication device, I have channeled information and I have gone to the other side and back, when my mother was dying, and she came back to me, after she passed on, and we embraced in a very physical way, and I was not dreaming, but I was awake, she woke me up and when she left I was  standing by my bed, not in the bed...

I have done a lot of so called Astral Travel, and visited many places in this World and others, and of course, many other dimensions I have proof that they were real occurrences because I visited my mother  and others in Cuba, while I was in the USA and they confirmed whatever I saw and whatever I heard, because I developed clear audience as well as clairvoyance.

I have not ever died, and never even been operated, of anything, but I can go beyond the veils, and in order to do that, you have to be in a state of lack of self importance and some knowledge that we are nothing  but the same with the rest of all of us!

In other words, an ego-less state.

We may pick up the ego, again, but that is the thing that does not allow us to go beyond the veils, because the ego is precisely the veils that cover our eyes!

Much is being said about the Heart and the Wisdom of the Heart and it is totally true!

Without an open heart, we are getting nowhere... It is true that suffering is one of those open heart surgeries that can open our hearts, but knowledge of the Truth, can do it to, however the knowledge required is not a mental one, is an experiential one. Is one that can no longer be called knowledge, but Wisdom, where you understand completely, what you are learning through experience!
In other words: Live and learn!

But not everyone is alive, some are vegetating and appear to be alive, others are doing the inner work and appear not to be doing anything...
However, the perfect combination is to do the inner work while you are also doing the outer World, learning while applying the knowledge!
This is what I experienced all my life, thus I have doneso much and will continue to do, because "idle hands are the devils workshop"!
When you are paralized, engage in action, physical action is very useful, any action is better than inaction, because this is the World of Action, and you will always learn lessons when you engae, but when you widraw into yourself, there is no life cisculating in you, the juices of creation get stopped and depression ensues!

These are some of the paradigms that I have used in my life and I have lived, truly lived, so much!

Well, that was then, ad this is an explanation  more precisely of where I am now!

This is also from the same blog and is an  answer to a question raised as far as Reincarnation goes.

" I will answer your questions as to what I have been able to determine myself.

Beyond this dimension, the fourth, which is the time-space continuum, there is no time and no space. Therefore there is no past, no present and no future!

It is all in the Right Now!

So, they are not really past lives, they are lives...

I also know people that claim they were Isis, which is only an Archetype, and as for the Joan of Arcs and the Marie Antoinette, they aboud without end...

We are none of them, we are only consciousness and that is all there is and that is why we are All One, these are movies, and there is somewhere, what is called

the Akasik record, where all this movies are forever displayed.

So, we getin touch with these movies, and we seem to remmeber the show, and we believe it was us, but it was  not necessarily so.

Yes, many that have seen the same movie can have the same claim, I have even gone beyond that, because I not only remembered, but I re-lived some lifetimes, that were as mine as they are yours, for all we know, since you and I are but one.

I relieved some experiences, because they were necessary for my further awakening, and there was no time to die and be reborn, so I was living two and more lifetimes at the same time, actually I really was doing none of the sort, what I was doing was connecting with lifetimes that could give me a lesson that I needed for my further performance in this Earth.

I have remembered male and female lifetimes, or life lines, and I have felt what it feels to be either one.

But my Mayan sign is that of the Mother, I am the first one, Imix, the Mother Creator of everything, and that is the purpose of my Soul, yet, I had no children in this lifetime, but I am a mother to everyone!....

 But I am no one, I am Consciousness like you and me....

And I do not need to be anyone in particular any longer, because it is the identification with the Ego, or personality which causes us to become blind to what really is and renders us to be incapable to see what is really there as to what we "think", is there!

I hope this realloy explains it all for you!

Much love and please take care of yorself!

Since you are a part of me, too, I can not allow you to continue to be sick!"

And this is yet another a letter I wrote to friends, which explains  why I felt that I had gone permanently into another dimension....

I had experienced these dimensions many times, but  now I feel I am firmly entrenched in them!

  Dear All, I made an observation last night about the New Moon of Aquarius , that has appeared in the skies showing a horizontal side, instead of the usual vertical presentation of the New Moon!

This, of course, represents a shift between the relationship between our Earth and the Moon, therefore, a physical shift has taken place!

So far, I have felt like a new person, and as if I have been living in a new Paradise (obviously a new Paradigm for me), and nothing that ever can happen from now on, could move me or take away my happiness, because I feel myself firmly set in the light!

There is nothing greater than this state of permanent grace...

I have experienced it many times in my life, but it was wavering, now it is firmly set in place....

Theere has been obviously a physical shift, as well, not only a shift in my own consciousness!

I needed to share this with all of you and I would appreciate some feed back, if you would look at the New Moon and comfirm my vision for me!