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I am heartbroken.
I shared my heart with someone and they shared theirs with mine.
And the syncs and the signs were unbelievable.
We were both awake in the flow and creating such beautiful moments.
Sharing of hearts when both awake is indescribable.
Our communication was often telephatic.
The voice recognition tremendous.
The connection was unlike any I have ever felt.

And then with the intense energies of the moon it all changed...
Fear stepped in.
Logic took over.
The mind said wait!!!!!
And the heart closed up.
Hidden issues rose to the top to be cleared.
Fear took root in the fog...

Now because the love they feel is so strong they have pulled away completely.
Leaving me completely bewildered.
Breaking my heart in the name of too much love?

Now the fear is so strong for them that there is nothing I can do except step away from the relationship.
For they have closed themselves off to their heart.
And that hurts me.
I am done being hurt.
I cannot stay,even though it breaks my heart to go.

So I am going to say goodbye for now to the relationship that is no longer for the highest good.
Not because of not loving them, but because I love me and them too much to let them hurt me.
I let the relationship go with all my love.
The heart connection will always remain.
They are always welcome back as long as the new relationship is based on love and not hurt or fear.

I deserve no pain from love in my life.
That is an illusion,the belief that love hurts.
Love does not hurt.
If it hurts it is NOT love.
There might be love in there but it is mucked up with other non-love things.
I cannot accept a relationship in my life that hurts me.

The timeline merging between us, one that needed to happen.
The ending of many lifetimes.
Yet the love is still so deep.
And even though I will miss them so much, I also love them and I am so happy we came together one last time.
And we remembered each other.
And our hearts recognized each other.

And while I understand that this is all part of the process...I have to say I am tired.
Very tired.
The light within me wavering.
But I know that it will pass.
I know the release will bring such clarity.
I know I am loved and this will pass.

So know my light family that even in times of heartbreak there is always hope.
The light within us may feel dim because we are hurting, but it is not.
It is always within us and ready to help us heal.
Our Source of Love and Light within our hearts never wavers.
It instantly starts the healing process.

So does Mother Nature.
And so are ALL that love us, here and beyond.
I have to keep reminding myself to go within and allow myself to be healed.
And to ask for help with this heartbreak.

Love never hurts.
Never.
That is the illusion that reared its ugly head during these past week's(or so) extreme energies for me.
Thinking it was ok to be hurt in the name of love just because the heart connection was so strong.
And accepting others' behaviors that hurt me in the name of love... because they love me it's ok...
No it is not.
It never is.
It never will be.

However,when we feel pain in our hearts, it's ok to ask for help and show our vulnerability to others...
It's ok to cry and feel.
Feel the anger and rage for the pain another causes us...and then let it go.
I might be shifting and expanding, but last I checked feelings are what makes me human...daing it, I am feeling very human right now.
(Kinda sucks.)

But this WILL pass and the clarity will be enormous.
And that keeps me going, even when I have a broken heart.
I know this will pass.
The love felt was well worth it.
I would do it all over again.

And I do know that when I release those things which are not for the highest good of all, I get a ton of clarity and love which fills me and gets me closer to being one with my Source.
I'm holding on to that approaching moment right now.
I know it is on the way.

In Light and Love
Shine Bright my beautiful family
marie