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THE CRUCIFIXION:

I lifted up my eyes to Heaven whilst still in my body on earth; amidst all the noise and confusion, the sounds of many tongues, at last they felt their job had been done, another one had been brought to justice.

Thus their thirst for revenge, so it seemed avenged, but oh, if they but knew, it was all foreseen, and it was but a beginning of a beautiful dream, that had taken many lives to get it to perfection, let alone realisation.

The nails had been finally put into place, I was there on the cross, the crowds who had been waiting were happy at last.

But over all this noise and how loud it was, were the voices of my dear friends and disciples too, who above all the shouts and cries shouted back - in anger and despair: "What harm has Jesus done - that he should be tortured so, all he has done is to show love to all; speak his mind, so is it such a crime - worth death itself."

Those words gave me comfort that even now, at this moment, others were learning, things they were as yet unaware, but the knowledge and seeds of which would live ever on and be of great importance in all their lives yet to come.

For at other times, different places, something within - so it would stir, and thus that wisdom and knowledge and deep love would become ever more fruitful, as all life must and has to become like ripened fruit, perfect and beautiful or as blossom, in full and perfect bloom.

Thus as I lifted my eyes, the memories came back, since that time Judas had kissed me at last.  Amidst all the shouting, noise and confusion, upon which I stepped out of my body itself.

For I had reached that stage when Mastership so it had come. For I had been attuned to God Himself for so very very long: a thousand lives, a thousand destinies, so it has seemed, but always my faith, my love for Him, so it has always been.

But you know, long ages ago, I had laid aside my bodily needs, for the spirit was and is everything. Thus my spiritual needs were all important, then and even now, at this ending and thus too beginning. For my spirit will rise as it has risen before - I will be with My Father in His Heavenly Worlds.

I will at last have done all I promised myself, and God too, long ages past.

For always you see, throughout life and history, from the very beginning of time, there has been the teacher - healer; although of many different nationalities, religions too, for that ancient wisdom, so it has never died, and never will, for love will always reign supreme, even if only a few souls are of that dream too, and my beloved brothers, sisters too, so such love there has always been.

But to go back to that time of betrayal, yes, I did indeed leave my body, for if one was aware of all spiritual laws, I had on numerous occasions vanished from the crowds, people, for I retreated to God's Inner Worlds, and my body no longer showed itself. 

Just as one day, when other souls reach this advanced stage, they too, have within themselves all the Mysteries of the Universe.

But our Father you know is very wise, and many tests and heights must a soul attain and pass through. For in days long past, these secrets so they were imparted too soon for some souls, for they went down that downward path, to self-glory and desire, thus now it is a greater privilege than ever and indeed a rarity, for God's mysteries are unveiled only at a certain point on that evolutionary path.

Thus did I remain attached as it were to my body, by a silver cord so to speak, just a bit behind it, so I could reach out and touch my flesh with my celestial self.

But if that seems impossible and a thought not possible to believe, let me tell you too, that in those early lives of mine, I did feel physical pain, for I suffered at other's hands. Just as today and in the future, others will suffer.

But through the sorrow of suffering, my spirit was reborn, and I have progressed ever on, for always was I my children, a teacher who healed - sometimes the body, at times the mind, for healing takes many forms.

But true healing takes place you know, when the soul and heart are attuned to the Christ Spirit, to God Himself, for thus all things are possible, for you and God are attuned at last, and but a minute happening, so it is shown of God's Eternal Wonders that will forever come.

Therefore the tears of pain I shed, were not you see for myself, but for the hatred of man to his brother, for the pain I knew others would feel, have felt, just as I myself had in the past. I wept for my loved ones who weeped for me, for they alas could not see what I could see, for they knew but a small part, of all the mysteries of life, and yes, even death itself.

But I have belonged to a vast great order that has been handed down lovingly and devotedly through all the ages of time, for always was I brought up - in the Brotherhood of the Essenes, a mystical people who loved God above all else; all bodily pains or material comforts.

This Brotherhood you know, of which I have belonged is no longer seen to mere man himself, for they belong in the mystical places high in the mountains of Syria, and when I die, after my reunion with all my loved ones and disciples, thus too, I shall depart and join my beloved brothers and help humanity and God Himself - with the power of our love, our Mastership, our at-one-ment with the Creator and all His Dreams.

For from those mystical places, thus will we teach our pupils to love and show no hate, to evolve ever higher to God's Heavenly Kingdom, when once more so they stay.

Through all the many centuries and decades to come, a group of select, dedicated and devoted souls, will be helped to learn and thus for them too, to leave wisdom and truth behind, for man years and years later to find, albeit by then but an acceptance of God's Spiritual Laws, Mysteries and Wonders, deep within each man's heart.

But 2,000 years from now, when the world enters the Aquarian Age, a new dawning of spiritual realisation and attunement so it will come from their innermost being. For thus in those days, long ages away, intuitive wisdom, knowledge and love, will have been born.

For the Piscean Age of which I have been the Teacher, will have given place to the dawn of a better day, which will you know have a New Teacher, who will inspire others, all being taught lovingly and devotedly by the very Great Ones who taught in the very beginning of time.

Memories of which, will long have been forgotten, but veils will be lifted, for always God's hand so it is held out, to all who will take so lovingly offered, the path of eternal bliss, that will lead man, woman, on to Eternal Life, as it has been so ordained, long before the Beginning of Time.

The hours have gone on, lots of people so they have left and it is quieter now, but still there are many who I know will wait till the end for one reason or another, that fulfils their inner need: But my Mother is here and my beloved friend, who will comfort her when I have gone.

I see too - many of the people I have helped and healed and how my heart aches for their tears of pain, and their thoughts on the meaning and purpose of life, for yes, they will wonder just as others will - indeed have, on the why, how and where they will go, thoughts on life itself.

My brother who carried my cross, how we feel ever blessed at the love and devotion we feel for each other. But all of that love and devotion, so it had been seen, indeed talked about long before it happened, for some things so they will be, for they belong with God's other Mysteries, that man, woman, cannot begin yet to understand, but they will gradually learn, indeed yearn, for spiritual truths, knowledge and wisdom in their many lives yet to come, through all the spheres of time.

Thus have I spoken and shown even at this end my love to all; persecutor and even my brother who dies with me, that all the scriptures may be fulfilled, and all who may be helped by my love for all, will find a glimmer of compassion deep in their mind, heart and soul too, for it will be added to that storehouse of memories buried so deep, all a part of each spirits life, throughout Life and Eternity.

The time is ending for I see ahead, and thus I raise my eyes to Heaven itself, and so do I thirst for spiritual food, indeed my soul yearns to be free, and after a time of inner pain, I behold with my eyes Heaven again.

I see Angels playing and singing their harps, music and love is all around - an Archway of Angels I see before me and how my soul rejoices so, for soon I will be Home, the Prophecies have been fulfilled and I will see Heaven in all its Glory.

As I take a final look at God's Hot Sun that gives out warmth and life to all, I behold with wonder and yes, joy, Seven Suns, all perfect and true, full of brightness, dazzling to behold.

For there is the Sun just as all men, women, see, but making a circle around the Sun are six more beautiful Suns, all of the same size and brilliance too - with space between, forming a perfect circle of Six Suns surrounding the inner Sun of Earth, and here at last, my soul cries out and I know into my Father's hands I go, with love and joy and peace too, for God's blessings come even now too, for a Vision of Heaven so do I see - in all the Seven Suns, and Paradise so do I see, and how blessed I feel with the beauty and wonder now shown to me.

For yes, I am at last free, and so I give myself into my Father's care, and yes, so it is finished, and all the scriptures so they are fulfilled, for not a bone in my body has it been broken, so all is as it had to be, for me to fulfil God's Prophecy.

Amen.

Pat Grabham

1980's.