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All my life I have searched for Love.
Outside of myself.

I was a baby left at a hospital.
In an instant, so began my life experience of looking for Love.
When I opened my soul's eyes and looked for my physical connection to Love, my mother,she was gone.
Love was gone.
Or so I thought.
And I began my life long search to find it.

As a child I looked to find Love from my parents ,at first.
I did not have that extra physical connection to them...and somehow I felt it.
However,I received it beautifully from my adoptive mom and dad.
It grew within me and I love them so much.
But with it came all their ideas of what love was...ideas formed from their life experiences,and thus expectations were born.
I grew up believing that if I met everyone's expectations, that was a way to show Love.
I started to attach conditions and expectations to Love.

As an adult I continued.

I looked to find Love in frienships.
Had a very good idea of what a friend should be.
Once again, I added conditions to Love.
Many times I hurt my friends in the name of Love.

I looked to find Love in a husband.
I received it beautifully...at first.
And then came more expectations and conditions...
And somehow that eternal Love I thought I had found, became no longer eternal.
Once again,Love hurt.

I also looked to find Love in my children.
But of course I added conditions and expectations to them as well...
I thought that by trying to control them, somehow it was the right thing to do...
I added control to Love when dealing with them.
More conditions added.

Now I see how all my life I have been looking to experience Love outside of myself.
To find it in the world.
But I clouded that Love with things that were not Love.
Because that was what I wanted to learn.
I wanted to experience Love and what Love is not.

And now I am in the process of letting go of all the conditions and expectations of what I thought Love was.
All my ideas of what Love should be.
Romantic or otherwise.
There are no conditions in Love.
Nothing attached.
Love just is.

And that Love is in me.
It is me.
And when I allow it to radiate out from myself, it surrounds me.
It changes the world around me.
My world becomes Love based, not fear based, like it was before.
My relationships become Love based, instead of expectations and conditions and emotions and fear based.
My world improves, and grows in abundance.

And so it seems to me that people around me would expand as well.
For how could they not?
Love makes all things grow.
And if I share my Love with those around me...their Love grows too.
Because Love is indeed contagious.
Easily spread.

The Love that resides in us, an aspect of Source, is as pure as the white Light, full of warmth and acceptance.
It is the breath of life and creation.
It shines nonstop like the sun.
It cannot be stopped.
And it is within us that we find it.
It is us.
In our heart.
Where the Source of Love resides.
Where we are remembering, once again, to find it.

Once all things not Love are removed from the entrance to our heart, the door is very easy to open...just turn the handle...step in.

I found Love and it wasn't even hiding from me.
It has been within me all this time.
But what an amazing discovery it has been.
And what an amazing playground to discover it in.

I am in deepest gratitude to be here,at this time, with ALL of you.
I wish for all my Light family to reconnect to their Love within.

In Light and Love
: )
marie