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t seems everyday, many,many times I tell myself, I never thought it would be this...honestly!

Here is a new one for me:

I am not affected by this Christmas at all.
It feels like...nothing to me.
Not emotional.

I DO feel the energy of those around me though, the energy of it is one of desperation...
running out of time...
hurry,hurry,hurry...
haven't done enough...
haven't bought enough to show my love.

Yep there it is!... the little stinker hiding in there.
Found it.
...If I don't give you presents,(after all think of the gifts the Magi brought baby Jesus,and it is His Birthday...)
then...

You won't love me as much. ( I am afraid)
And I love you so much. (The Light in me sees the Light in you)
I want to buy your love. (My love is eternal and there is no THING that can measure it, but I feel compelled to try)

Oooooh weeeee!
I love you so much I will put myself in debt to show you my love.
I am going to run around like crazy, miserable, with many,many miserable people, and buy you things that will be forgotten, broken, or useless by January 1st.
Make myself sick for you!
Then you will have an idea of how much I love you.
And you will love me back.

But how can I show you with things how much I love you? (My love for you is eternal)
I don't have enough money!! ( I love you so much because I am love and I am loved)
I know!!
I will work extra hours and make myself even more miserable, so I can buy you (and me too) more things.
Because I love me too you know...( Love for self and love for others, for we are ALL ONE)

Yeah,so that is what it feels like to me "out there".

Oh and add to that the energy of confusion.
Of thinking it all looks like they say it should...but somehow something is missing...
something is off...
The more one tries, the more it is lacking?
What is it?

The more I have, the emptier I feel.

Could it be our hearts speaking the true meaning of Christ, not the person, but the essence of that beautiful consciousness?
A consciousness beyond a human whose birthday we celebrate on not even the right date?
Telling us(actually starting to yell) that Christmas is not about being caught in materialism, for love cannot be bought.
It is about connecting and feeling inner peace, not feeling anxious,depressed,desperate,angry...
(and if it feels like that...well NOT in the flow...)
It has to be experienced through our hearts.

It is about a connection so infinite that a human walking this earth cannot experience the fullness of it.
At the moment one does, I guess they are poof,gone tripping the light fantastic...
The vibration would be so high that it could not be contained within the density of a physical body, could not remain at 3d density...

So I guess that is what I feel from those around me who are not yet connected to their hearts.
But I tell you what...if everything is hunky dory why change anything?
It is the feeling of not hunky dory that will help souls awaken.

The need for change.
The inability to find inner peace while an inner voice says that "yes, it is possible..."
A knowing that it can be attained...
yet not understanding where the voice is coming from...
but it feels so REAL that voice...

So Santa is coming in for a hard landing this year.
Hit some turbulence on the way in.
Having some rough ascension symptoms.
Brake system on the sleigh not working at all.
Reindeer out of control.
Dropping gifts all over the place.
At all the wrong places.
Coal for good,toys for those that were on the coal list...
And time? what is happening to time?
There is simply no more time...

Thank goodness I am out of the insanity.
I will sit in my little piece of heaven and wait.
I seem to be acquiring patience as one of my ascension signs.
THAT is a miracle for sure.

I will wait for all the Santas that will be coming in for a hard landing during this Christmas season.
All my loved ones not quite finding that inner peace, getting the message something is OFF...not really understanding why it feels like the only answer is come to my little house by the sea and sit,doing nothing, sleeping a lot, and feeling safe.
The texts and messages have already started to come in.
My house has become a safe haven for my loved ones.

And I couldn't be happier.
(Oh and yes I managed to piss off several people again...hehehehe
This of course adds to my happiness.
Triggering people with my energy is what I do best.
And I don't even have to do anything to do it.)

Maybe the best gift for Christmas that I can give my loved ones is to just offer them a safe haven during the storm and so they can reconnect to their hearts and feel inner peace.
So they can hear guidance from their hearts.
Can't buy that.
Yet it can still be given.
Huge gift.
The ability to lovingly let them be.

Thank goodness I got a new roof.
Santa is coming in hard.
Needs to disconnect from 3d.
Gonna load up on cookies and eggnog.
Get the crock pot out.
Need comfort food.
Santa needs love.
Lots of it.

I am great at that too.
Giving love.
We all are...for we are love, we just forgot for several millennium that's all.
Doesn't mean it's not true just because it is forgotten, or unknown.
It just IS.

In Light and Love and with a big Ho-Ho-Ho
: )
marie