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Where are my car keys?
Where's my wallet?
What did I come into this room for?
What did I come to get at the store?
Where the heck am I?(as I am driving down a familiar road)
What day is today?(what year)
Who am I?( I don't know but I am very ditzy right now...)

Oh yes, it seems that my inability to remember jack has actually gotten worse.
How that is possible... I don't know.
I have now come to accept that I really can't function out in the "real"(haha yeah right!) world.
They are beyond crazy out there and I want no part of it.
But it also takes me forever to get out of my daing house(to go to the real world) because I lose everything.
In the house.
It all just seems to disappear.

Seems I have lost my mind as well...

I have started a new habit...(let's call it that, shall we?)
It seems I talk to myself and answer myself without thinking about it.
I guess all those years of being a hermit and talking to myself have finally payed off.
I have no idea how long I have been doing this.
I caught myself in the store looking at a shirt and having a conversation with myself about it.
All of the sudden I looked up and there was a lady staring at me...she then basically walked off, quickly.
I have no idea how long she was there.
Or how long I was not...
Then I kept laughing at myself and running more people off.
I can see how easy it would be to get labeled as the crazy lady who talks to herself...I better start getting cats...
Good thing I don't give a sh*t about what people think of me.

I still remember how to get home.(within and without)
Because in my home is where I want to be.
I feel I am disconnecting more and more from people and situations in the 3d world.
It just seems so insane and I have no desire to be a part of it,at all.
I have also disconnected from what I call "outside resources".
But with those disconnects has come a huge connect to Mother Earth and all her healing powers.
And I am able to go within my heart and center quickly now.
I feel always connected to my Source within my heart.

But getting back to my memory.
I feel as if it is all in there like a huge library, but my librarian is drunk or something and forgot how to get to needed information...I am not staying grounded.
And then out of the blue, I will have such moments of complete clarity and remembering it is a staggering experience.
Like a partly cloudy day when the sun peeks out every now and then from behind the clouds...
A moment of being smart again.
And then it's gone.
And I walk around the house again looking for missing items which were just there...

So at this point I am not worried.
Add this to the long list of weird things in my life.
And I have a feeling that those moments of clarity will expand and grow as I continue to release what is not for the highest good of all.
And if my memory gets worse...well I guess I will cross that bridge when and if I get there...

Right now however, my memory is shot.(Something going on in my brain...)
I cannot remember much.
I am exceptionally ditzy.
It is pretty funny though.
And it seems people around me laugh a lot , so that's a good thing.
I think they are amazed that somehow I manage to make it through every day...

But there is one thing I do always remember now.
All the time.
I am a spiritual being having a physical experience on this beautiful earth,who is greatly loved and who loves greatly, eternally.
And I believe that as long as I remember that,everything else will work out as it should for the highest good of all.
My heart tells me this.
It is easy to remember.

Shine Bright my beautiful light family.
You are always in my heart.
In Light and Love
: )
marie