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Well honestly, I don't think standing is the right word.
Standing implies upright.
Still here, but not standing.
There is serious tilting going on.
Things are weird and my mind has given up.

Happened about two weeks ago.
Had no point of reference so mind has decided to chill and not try to make sense of things.
It is now observing and taking notes.
Needs new database.
At least that is what it feels to me.

If I need information it seems to flow to me.
Sometimes things pop into my mind and when I go check it is true!
That is a super cool new gift to open...

I can honestly say that four days ago my life went into meltdown mode.
Welcome to squeezing through the lion's gate...skinny little fellow to squeeze through...
Or at least those around me went into meltdown...
Emotional explosions everywhere.
Family meltdowns.
My neighbors.
My friends.
My two closest soul sisters, both deep in their remembering now.

Usually it is me who meltdowns when these energies are so strong.
But this time I have been able to stay somewhat centered while watching those very close to me fall apart.
Literally, their worlds collapsing.
I have stayed in a peaceful space, while those around me went through dark nights.

And when my sweet soul sister from Florida was completely dragged under, I told her "get in the car and drive safely to me."
Her environment had become so toxic for her that she was literally struggling for breath.
Had to let it go.
She was trying to hold on to how things were...to people who were not acting from their hearts...
Her ascension symptoms hitting so hard,her environment of a very low vibration,extreme brain fogginess.

My other soul sister too had a huge let go, but is now going through the regret phase of letting go.
The physical words have been spoken but now insecurities set in...
This is when we tend to go back to the old energies,even though we know in our hearts that we cannot be sustained there,
but we have such fear of loss...

It truly has been incredible watching those around me go through so deep releases due to the catalyst of these intense energies...
I saw me in all of them.
My heart feels such compassion for their pain but at the same time I know their clarity will be so much more intense.
Like I said, usually it is me falling apart.

My symptoms have been different this time.
My brain went foggy for the beginning phase.
Could not write.
Words would not form.
I now have better mental clarity.

I felt the intensity of the energy and was better able to ground it, like it flowed through me better,these energies, not as many blockages to stop the flow...
But I also spent a lot of time in the water.(Salted baths as well.)
Just sitting at the edge of the waves,letting the water flow past me.
I am so blessed to be in such a magical,healing place.

It seems water is the key ingredient for me when the energy intensifies, it is water that helps me to better integrate and flow.
Drink as much water as possible.
Lately my body has also been asking for vitamin c.

I also have been eating like crazy.
Put it in front of me and it is gone.
Any food, equal opportunity of consumption.
And sugar?
Don't even talk about it( I am usually a salty girl so this is very weird for me)
I am craving sugar.
Plowing through a box of palmiers right now...oh yeah sugar and butter...

Another weird thing.
I don't remember any dreams.
Since a child, I have always had prophetic dreams,so dreams are a huge message system for me.
Not getting any.
At all it seems.
I close my eyes and go into blackness.

Wake up at all different times.
One night I sleep five hours,another eleven.
Always wake up tired.

When I do dream I seem to be going from dark rooms, or dark closets, into a light filled space on the other side.
Usually a soul family member is with me and I am holding their hand...

My sleeping is all over the place.
I am fine and then all of a sudden I hit a wall.
BAM!
I have to lay down because I am going to sleep NOW.
I cannot keep my eyes open.
And if I try my eyelids weigh a million pounds.
That is weird too.

So am I still standing?
Well I have either tilted and the world is straight, or the world tilted and I am straight...
But since my mind has no clue and is taking notes, at this point all I feel is a huge shift.
Within and without.
Inside and out.

I can't believe there could be such a huge energy shift without a physical manifestation of it occurring.
Need to stay in my heart about that, even though I feel no fear at all.
I guess we work to manifest energy shifts in a positive way...don't have to be negatively released...

My heart feels more connected somehow.
That feeling..."I got this" has become very strong within me.
My guide is no longer a guide per say.
I feel no distinction in my heart.
Doesn't feel "more" than me...our knowledge base is starting new.

I am starting to find my energetic feet in this new world,I think.
And with it comes such incredible sense of freedom.
These amazing Creator energies are coming in and permeating everything and everyone.
Whether they want them to or not.
No thing can stop them.

There is no shielding from it.
Games can continue to be played,but it won't change the outcome.
Gonna shake everyone up and help them see the truth of the world we have created.
The truth is ugly, but the only way to move forward is to see it exactly for the ugly it is.
The ugly truth is what opens our hearts up the most sometimes...

So to all my light family...Hold on.
Believe that what you feel is the new world.
Don't let your mind talk you out of it.
You are not going crazy.

We are remembering how to live our life from our heart.
Feeling energy instead of relying on information from our mind...for that information was the illusion,those are the lies.
Our hearts know Universal Truth.
The Truth of our Creator.
Where there is no thing that cannot be accomplished.
Every thing is possible.
Including healing an entire planet.

Stay in our hearts.
All the answers we need,all solutions, are in there.
Just BE.

In Light and Love