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The way things happen always amaze me.
For this past year and a half I have worked at finishing my little house.
Have relocated(been relocated?) to another state and don't know many people at all.
I have been an excellent hermit.

All this time of not having neighbors and being completely isolated has been what was needed for me so I could release and release and release...so I could hear my Source within.
So I sat in my little hermit house and healed my heart.

But I was lonely.
There is a difference for me between being lonely and being alone.
I know I am never alone.
And yet there has been many times when I have yearned for companionship, friends,neighbors...
Human contact.

Which is hard when you are in a brand new place and know a handful of people.
And don't have any neighbors in the house next to you.

So I would sit and imagine a day when I would finally step into my new life.
The one where everything that was the old me, the way I was, had been let go.
I would imagine a life filled with loving friends and family.
One not being a hermit.
Peaceful.

Fast forward to now.

A family has moved in to the house next door.
Five kids under the age of 14(or there abouts)...one being a new born baby girl.
Absolutely love all of them.
They live their lives from their hearts and decided to be happy.

The peace and quiet,the hermit era?
Gone.
My son has also moved to the island and has found an amazing job.
Followed his heart.
He is the happiest I have ever seen him.
Has decided he really likes it here.
He is still quite messy,a trait he gets from me...
I guess we must not be quite 5d yet...

I went from having the house to myself and constant silence,to constant family and company.
And the neighbors say the kids have never met a hippy before...
The kids are always over,interested in what ever weird thing their neighbor is now doing...they see me as different, imagine that...

Probably going to have to get better at boundaries...but how I can I turn down the four year old face who asks please can we have a snow cone while already having walked into my house and is standing in the kitchen?
To me they truly are what I wished for... a beautiful family,who speak my language,who live next to me full time.
I got it in abundance it seems, for I never imagined a family of FIVE children living next to me...
I just had asked for nice and living their lives from their heart.
Abundance is quite the gift.

Funny they are starting a brand new life too...awakened and aware.
Just like me.
Birds of a feather flock together...

So why do I write this today?

Because when I held that beautiful baby this morning I realized that it is also for her that I am going through this now.
So her world will be different than the one I live in today.
For all of them really.
For everyone.

Even though at this point I have no idea how this will all play out, I feel the change.
I see the light at the end of the tunnel.

And even if nothing more happens, these last five years of my loss and hell have done one thing.
They have allowed me to choose to no longer live in that old world.
Everything that was not the truth in my life was stripped down to the bone and finally seen.
I saw it...
And I let it go.

After all if I am truly honest with myself:
The house was way too expensive,we were living beyond our means.
The businesses enslaved me to the tax system,which fed a consumer system,and I worked long hours so I could buy things to show my loved ones my love.
The marriage had been troubled for many years.
All of it is now gone.

And now?
I have friends that love and accept me.
I have a little house I can afford and feels like heaven to me.
Still working on the job thing,and the companion thing...but I am about to start a new business.
I have no clue exactly what,but I know it will take care of me while allowing me to do something I love.

So without having gone through my own personal hell,these last five years or so, I wouldn't have gotten rid of everything that was no longer for the highest good of all in my life.
Things and people and situations that seemed to be from the heart but really were not...
I truly appreciate what I have now, the people who love me,I see what is really important in my life.
Everything that was my life, is no longer.

And when there is nothing left, it is easy to start new.
Whether a life or even a world...

I have the opportunity at 49 years of age for a fresh start.
A brand new world to explore.
Mine.
And I feel I will be just fine.

All of us will be.

I feel we have become one conscious collective now,guided from our hearts.
Working together as one yet individually.
Now we just need to understand how this new way of being works...while we step into the unknown.

So we are trying to understand the unknown while stepping into the unknown...
Sure seemed easy when I decided to go for it, from the other side of the veil everything seems so easy...must not have read the fine print...

So at least I am stepping into the unknown with a roudy ,love-filled bunch next to me...which seem to be quickly multiplying.
God only knows what else is coming my way.
At this point all I do is go one step at a time.
One moment at a time.
That's all I know how to do.

And I apparently make awesome, snow cones...go figure.
Got that going for me.

Keep going my light family.
One step at a time into this new unknown.
Remembering to hold the babies along the way and reconnect to one of the reasons why we are all here,each other, to change the way things are, so that the future generations have freedom to BE whatever their soul desires from their heart,with no fear.

In Light and Love
marie