Location

Kuala Lumpur

Relationship Status

Single

Tell us about yourself? (All answers must be full sentence answers for your membership to be approved)

I have very low self esteem, an unwanted child, being mentally abused for 46 years. I am jobless for 11 years, no friends, currently staying with my parents, My sister gives me some pocket money for survival. I am taking care some stray cats now. ( Since many years ago, I felt stuck in all areas in my life. I felt something is blocking, covering me up- a very thick+ solid energy. So , i always feel very tired+ lose hope, no matter how many mantras i chanted or how much i repented for my present life + past lives wrong doings, or asking my Higher Self for forgiveness, or asking Angels to help me. Nothing seems worked- sorry to say that..... I guess i reap what i sow- my own karma- i have to carry all. Often times, i feel exhausted, depressed, stressed and over whelming....... )

What brought you here?

1) I want to learn Reiki to heal myself. In 2017, i nearly died, due to the death of my 15 precious stray cats. My heart was broken into thousand million pieces. I loved them dearly.....My mum killed them....... ( 21 years ago, i risked my own life to save my mum's head from being chopped off by my dad. Then, 21 years later, my mum cursed my cats+me to death everyday for 11 months+ . And finally , my mum killed all ........., except me.....) ( I sincerely wish i could die with them.......... I know it is my karma, it is my lesson. I need to learn to forgive everyone. But it was too painful....... I guess , in our previous life, my cats had killed my mum, so my mum took revenge in this life to kill them all.......Karmic patterns, Karmic relationships......... the circle never ends) 2) I hope i can do Reiki self heal my acne + deep pitted acne scars (many holes ) all over my face. I feel ashamed + ugly with it. ( 21 years ago, before the incident- my dad wanted to chop off my mum's head, my face was then very smooth + healthy. Sadly, after saving my mum's life, my whole life had turned up-side down. My heart was broken into thousand million pieces....... )

What can you contribute?

I wish i can stand up to be myself,be happy, be loving, be a cheerleader to everyone i meet. Have a simple life.

Teachers

I dont have any Reiki teachers or spiritual teachers. I dont have friends either. Sincerely, I wish i have......

Books

I am very sensitive, so i choose books that are gentle and loving.

Movies

I am very sensitive to visual. I will have night mares after watching TV shows since i was a kid. Images will haunt me when i sleep.

Music

I listen to Youtube free meditation and Reiki music to heal myself.

Goals

I wish i can have a happy permanent job, have good friends, have a loving and supportive home. I am not sure yet will i become a Reiki healer to give free healing to others.But, when i was a kid, i always dreamed that i was flying rescuing+helping many people....

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