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Who Am I?

What Am I Doing Here?
"All souls were created in the beginning and are finding their way back to whence they came."
~ Edgar Cayce 

Have you ever wondered who you are? I mean really are. I'm not talking about a casual thought here or something you briefly think about over a quick cup of coffee. Rather it's the kind of question you might quietly contemplate while walking the beach at sunrise or when sitting on a rock with your feet in a gentle mountain stream.
As you begin to spend some time with this question, another may come to mind. It is almost as important as the first, and the two go hand in hand very nicely. "What am I doing here on this planet?"
The search for answers to these questions often inspires two more we can ask, which finally takes us to where we really need to be to round out the quest for personal truth. And yet relatively few people give either of these questions much thought today. "Am I more than my body?" "Is this really my home?"
Two forces have to come together in order to ask these kinds of questions. The seeker must be ready to seriously consider them, and something has to provoke the questions into existence. The urge to seek can come in various ways: a painful life crisis, the death of a loved one, an unexpected synchronicity, fundamental questions about one's religious beliefs, profound doubts that arise when life doesn't make sense anymore, a strong and compelling curiosity, a radical turn in one's life, and so on. If your soul has brought you to the pages of this book, then most likely you are ready to consider these kinds of questions and give serious thought to their answers.
We have seen how the soul can project our bodies into physical reality and why it does so. But there is some unfinished history that needs to be explored and discussed. What happened before we found ourselves in physical bodies? I'm not talking about what we were doing immediately prior to our current incarnation. Rather, I'm
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referring to a time long before we incurred the need to be in physical form, and the cyclic drama of birth-life-death-rebirth and the karma that goes with it; the time before and up to the "Fall" of humankind.
Aeons and aeons ago, before we ever knew planet Earth existed, we roamed the universe as a communal group of souls in spirit form, free to do as we please. Our "bodies" were similar to what we have today, but much lighter in nature and makeup. Being less dense and of a higher vibration, we didn't have to eat, sleep, die, or concern ourselves with other challenges of physical survival. Most importantly, we were certain of our oneness with All That Is.
As spirit forms, we set out to experience and feel what had been created as we played among the stars. There was so much to do and even more to explore that we hardly knew where to begin. Suns, planets, galaxies, and other dimensions of existence were our playground. And play we did. It was a truly joyous experience. Just as God had intended.
Each individual spirit in our group of souls was neither male nor female, but an androgynous Being of Light that contained both polarities of masculine/feminine consciousness within the same ethereal essence. This was the original, holiest, most blissful, highest form of existence for the twin soul...a complete, Love-centered, untainted, miniature replica of Father/Mother with unlimited creative potential, and the free will to do so.
We continued to roam and explore the physical universe. As we did, we co-created experiences with ourselves and with Spirit. At the same time, our feelings were joyfully shared with our beloved Source.
We also realized that God had wisely created a special hierarchy of magnificent angelic beings to help Mother/Father oversee the events that were rapidly developing in the early stages of the new universe.
Other angels were lovingly assigned to watch over each and every one of us so long as we remained "outside" the Absolute. Untold numbers of soul groups had already formed, and each went their separate ways in search of endless adventure and excitement. Our angelic guardians followed wherever they and we went—without question, without judgment, ever loyal, always loving, forever guiding—and have done so to this day.
As we roamed the physical universe, we learned that our divine balance and connection with Spirit could be distorted at times. An enormous amount of matter had been created, much of which existed as heavenly spheres with different
vibrational patterns. Some of these spheres gave off an electromagnetic aura of energy, which beckoned to us and tested our connection with God. When we passed through or into these intoxicating fields of denser influence, the vibrations of our Light bodies slowed down a bit, our ability to think clearly was compromised to an extent, and our connection to All That Is was not as potent as it should be.
The more we explored these heavenly bodies and delved into their material fields of influence, the more we longed to be a part of its dense beauty. With time, we continued to over-identify with the magnetic frequencies these physical forms of expression had to offer. Without realizing it, the early stages of our gradual descent into matter had unwittingly begun.
At one point, our soul group traveled to a part of the universe that had never been explored before. As we journeyed through the stars, we suddenly became distracted by something in the distance that was utterly breathtaking. It was a magnificent planet within a relatively young star system the likes of which we had never seen before. Its beauty and symmetry were totally captivating, and we had never witnessed anything quite like it.
As we drew nearer to the surface of this planet, blue, green, white, and other colors blended together in a vibrant pattern of perfection that was truly stunning when framed against the darkened background of the universe.
We slowed down to study its makeup. Most of it was pristine water; the bluest we had ever seen. There was a peaceful flowing motion to the wispy, white atmosphere that gently swirled above its surface. Everything seemed to be in balance and harmony. We moved closer still. It was incredible. It was alive.
We soon discovered that abundant life in countless different forms and colors was everywhere: flying, running, swimming, crawling, furry, feathery, scaly, leafy, grassy and flowery. All living harmoniously and in ecological balance with one another. We had reached a place we now call Earth, and it was one of the finest creations of Father/Mother in the entire universe.
Before we mingled with the offerings this glorious planet had to offer, our soul group was reminded of its extraordinary plan; one that was ordained for it and it alone at the moment of Creation. While co-creating with Mother/Father, our intent was to establish a sacred expression of Their presence in a three-dimensional world by creating heaven on Earth there. But, to do so, we had to take on biological form.
In the process of spending time on Her surface, and interacting with Earth Mother and her splendid creations, we would spiritualize all that existed by blending Spirit with matter. If that could be accomplished, if we could serve as that sacred bridge between God and this physical world, the vibrations of this magnificent heavenly sphere and all the living things that moved upon Her flesh would be raised and brought closer to their Source.
We gradually descended to Earth's surface by slowing down the vibrational energy of our Light-bodies in order to make them more dense and compatible with those of a three-dimensional environment.
We realized that slowing down our rate of vibration and taking on a denser form was risky business. Fortunately, we had never lost our spiritual balance before when doing so. Nor had we become overly spoiled by the materializing influences of other spheres that had already been visited. And we were quite confident this would never happen. On the other hand, we had never been to this kind of planet before, and all the pleasures it had to offer.
When did all of this happen? Sanskrit insights from ancient Vedic teachings tell us we came here 2 billion years ago. Theosophical texts say it was 18.5 million years. Edgar Cayce mentions 10.5 million years have past since we arrived. The Urantia Book indicates that humans emerged from primates 1,000,000 years ago. Creationists who reference the Bible would have us believe that Adam and Eve were created from a lump of clay about 6,000 years ago. Our scientists tell us that the body of modern humans, not the human spirit, appeared on the African savannah approximately 200,000 years ago. There are other well-intentioned sources describing our arrival here that one can reflect on…including the role that extraterrestrials may have played in it.
From what I've read about the history of mankind, especially that given by Edgar Cayce, the earliest visit by our spirit forms to this planet was the first of two waves that our soul family made a long time ago, most likely millions of years in the remote and murky past.
Our initial attempt to blend Spirit with matter was not successful. Seduced by the sensual, materialistic pleasures Earth had to offer, especially those that were sexual in nature, we lost our way and became trapped in this plane of denser existence. At that point, the initial "Fall" of the human species into the heaviness of three-dimensional matter took place. With it came the agonizing separation of androgynous twin souls into male and female physical forms, and we have been searching for our other halves ever since. Over time fear came to dominate love, separation and fighting began, greed replaced sharing, survival of the fittest became the norm, ego replaced God-centeredness, and self-gratification spiraled out of control. In essence
our love for one another dissipated, we lost our remembrance of God, and, in the process, forgot who we really are. For the most part, it's been that way ever since.
Edgar Cayce and others tell us that through the grace of God two things happened to help the fallen souls awaken from their material slumber and free them from the influences of matter. The first was that they eventually found themselves constrained within the cycle of reincarnation and karma that is predicated on a simple Universal law: What you put out comes back to you.
The reincarnational cycle was created at the beginning of time as a fair and loving system of justice that applies anywhere in the universe when souls lose their way. No matter where or when that might occur, the life-death-life cycle would give those who had gone astray an opportunity to self-perfect, re-establish their divine connection over the course of many lifetimes, and remember who they really are.
The second gift of grace was a divine call for volunteers from members of our soul family who remained behind in spirit form. These courageous souls would form a second wave that would enter the three-dimensional plane of planet Earth, take on physical bodies, and participate in a rescue mission. From what I've read, this occurred during the time of Atlantis some two-hundred thousand years ago.
The bold rescue effort was led by an entity named Adam who is known today as Jesus. His purpose was to help the spellbound souls regain their divine origins. Sadly, many who came in the second wave also lost their way and became trapped here. Over succeeding generations, a small portion of that group, including Jesus, keep taking on physical form and return here from time to time to help those who are still baffled, bewildered, and overly attached to the material ways of life.
During those harrowing times, the reincarnational cycle not only applied to those who were part of the Atlantean civilization but other human-like creatures who began to appear on other parts of the planet, including the African plains. Each of these early humans was a mortal being who was purposely composed of three parts: a physical body, a mind, and the spirit of a lost soul who was reincarnating. Through the intervention of free-will choice and time, this primitive human had the potential to evolve over many lifetimes into a higher version of itself and remember its divine birthright.
Today, after many incarnations, these evolved humans and many of their Atlantean counterparts are walking the face of this planet still trying to self-perfect. How and why this number has reached some 6.6 billion I can't explain. It would seem that other souls are also a part of this extraordinary numerical mix. From what we are told in The Calling, by Rasha, the current time period is unprecedented in human history.

She also says that everyone who has ever had a hand in making planet Earth what it has evolved into today is here to experience and feel what is coming. Given the enormous number of souls who are present on this struggling planet, one has to surmise that something BIG is just around the corner. And we won't have to wait long to find out.
Part of the price we paid for separating from God was the life-death reincarnational cycle, the karma that goes with it, and the sickness, pain, and suffering that comes with 3-dimensional existence and survival. These emotional and physical challenges are not meant to serve as punishments even though they can feel that way. Rather, they serve to jolt us out of the everyday routines and ruts of life as we scurry around trying to survive. If we accept their presence in our lives they help us find the way back to who we really are. However, we have to do it on our own. God will help if we ask. But the rest is up to us.
Your purpose is simple, yet almost impossible to comprehend. The entire reason for your existence is to develop and evolve your consciousness so that you, it, and your soul become more God-like. In so doing, you will leave and then return to the Source from which you came, time and time again. Since your Source is continually evolving without end, your evolution will go on for all of eternity.
After untold numbers of life-death cycles, we have taken on and shed one physical body after another in order to let go of the material grip we have allowed this planet to hold sway over us. Slowly but surely, some faster than others, we are waking up and remembering our true spiritual nature. Eventually, all of us will. When we do, we'll leave this beautiful planet and bless the experience we had, as we return to the stars.
All of this will take time. In the interim, we should not only be asking ourselves, "Who am I really?" and "What am I doing here?" Just as importantly, we should take the time to contemplate an equally compelling question: "Where am I going?" As you will shortly discover, we are evolving towards fourth-dimensional existence. And there are others in that magical place who are patiently waiting for us to graduate from Earth school and welcome us to that far more exciting world